I don't know how to get up, and be normal, and do normal everyday things. Yet, somehow I do. Some days I'm proud, and other days... I just want to cry, because I feel like that means that I'm somehow forgetting you. You don't deserve that. But then, I look at my son, and think to myself, he doesn't deserve to see me this way. It's not his fault. I'm literally caught between the dead and the living, and I don't know how to balance the two...
I'm very touched by this quote. I lost my husband of seven years three years ago and I felt the same way...I felt that everything was a struggle, but in a way I was glad for the struggle because I felt that a man of his caliber deserved to be mourned...and a lot. But then I would feel guilty because I was trying to keep it together for our five kids
Do know that it gets better. You find a way to keep the one you lost in your heart while opening yourself up to life again. I actually got re-married a few months ago...that was hard...but also fantastic. Just don't close the door on being happy...your lost loved one wouldn't want that for you.
आफ्नो कौशलहरू परीक्षण गर्नुहोस्, यो लिनुहोस् टाइपिङ टेष्ट.