You go to the office, put a monkey suit on, act a certain way, say a certain thing, lie through your teeth at times, and you do whatever you need to do to look like a winner. And then at some point of your life you have to go, "I don't care what it looks like. I found the hole in the psyche and I'm going through. I'm gonna face the abyss of not knowing whether that's gonna be okay with everybody or not."