What brings me joy is life. I think you can find joy anywhere in life. I think it's a conscious choice. I think you, you choose joy in life, and no matter how bad things are, no matter how crummy, no matter how dark, no matter how many times some guy named John kills your ass, you find joy. I've found joy, honest to god, getting to know you. I've found joy playing chess with you. I haven't enjoyed getting my ass killed, but I find joy whatever I do.