The cutest guy can be the most deceiving one. But you had to learn this the hard way! You start out being good friends with this new guy. He's funny,gorgeous and then... Oh no, you are completely head over heels with this guy. Only to find out what complete jerk he is and that he was never your friend! He's not as kind to you once he found how you felt about him and he doesn't feel the same about you. But that doesn't mean shut you out like he did! It was wrong the way he did it and it hurt you!
I have to add one more thing. You've used this site as a diary...your 'quote' is way too personal to be on a public site. Some people, like myself, get all grossed out by the outpouring of emotions or personal details of the lives of others. To me, your quote is as disturbing as someone writing about the details of their bowel movements. Keep your private business private. Seek support from family and friends, not from total strangers. And save yourself some grief and stop caring so much about guys. Getting all worked up about a guy has never made sense to me