I have so many pent-up emotions it is starting to affect my life. I am what I like to describe myself as is an emotional trainwreck. I base actions and decisions on impulse and emotions sometimes and every day I regret them. So to get rid of my built-up emotions, I read, watch, think of something sad in an attempt to cry myself to make myself better. But, I still am not satisfied, I never am, but I feel like there is more I can cry out. But it's too late, crying time is over. All I want to do-.