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- How I became a loner (Part 3)
I just kept on wondering alone, what would happen to me, what would be my future, how could I get a job, how could I survive. I don't have any talent, that would help me find a job, I'm not good at anything. There are times that I feel worthless, and want to commit suicide, but I'm not brave enough. So I search google about surgeries hoping one could solve my problem but the fees are too much, and I don't have money to pay for. So I tried smiling all the time hoping it would help instead.
rainy
- How I became a loner (Part 2)
Experiencing those brought huge changes into my life. My facial expression, changed that anyone who sees me, judged me with the expression of I'm scary, I'm ugly, I'm serious, I'm angry, my face shows an expression that everyone around would be disgusted and leave me... I just don't know how to describe that. Because of the judgement I get when going around with people, I decided to just stay alone at home when I don't need to go out. I avoided my friends, and everyone even my family members.
rainy
- How I became a loner (Part 1)
Hi I've been a loner for years now. Everything began when I was a child, I'm a bit shy, talking to people, I think maybe because we're just poor. And that attitude kept on growing when I went to Highschool. I was end with depression and insomnia when I stopped in college when I failed my scholarship. Since then everything changed. I forgot to smile, I can't sleep at night and even on daytime way back in 2015 to early year of 2018. It's a miracle if I'd be able sleep at least 30 minutes a night.
