But, in a way, it's like sex is the easy part. You know, it's... giving your heart to somebody; that's the scary part. I lost my way, a little bit, this year. But... lately it's been better. You know, um, it's pretty amazing how.. temptation can be silenced by a ray of hope. But... when the face of that hope is a boy's face, I guess, for me, hope comes with trust issues too.