Every day I am reminded of how badly you screwed him up. I don't know if it's because you aren't capable of loving anyone more than yourself or other than yourself... but, you have left your son broken. Before I came along, he didn't know what it was like to be loved unconditionally. He has trouble trusting me to this day, without reason. I'm angry for him. As a child, he wasn't given a loving, nurturing mother. He was handed a spoiled brat who turned out to be oblivious to his emotional needs.