Black and white only colours I see sunless sky somehow stuck on repeat, but I hold it all down, don't want anyone to feel this but me. I'm only free from it when I'm asleep. The more I think the more I feel myself sink, back to this empty place. It's a nightmare I could never explain (Never explain), no one sees, but it's always December in me. No matter where I go it's pouring rain. In my head seasons never change, And it's killing me, no one sees. But it's always December in me. Tried so hard.