And everything stops; your heart, your lungs and finally your brain. And everything you feel, and wish, and want to forget, it all just sinks. And then suddenly, you give it air again, you give it life again. I remember the first time it happened to me I got so scared I wanted to call 911, go to the hospital and be kept alive by machines and AJ. But I didn't want to look like an idiot, I didn't want to fuck up everyone's night. Then over time, it's all I wanted-those two seconds of nothingness.