I just kept on wondering alone, what would happen to me, what would be my future, how could I get a job, how could I survive. I don't have any talent, that would help me find a job, I'm not good at anything. There are times that I feel worthless, and want to commit suicide, but I'm not brave enough. So I search google about surgeries hoping one could solve my problem but the fees are too much, and I don't have money to pay for. So I tried smiling all the time hoping it would help instead.